Lounge...

i really have no clue what to write. i want to sound smart but sounding smart is just dumb. i wish when i write here i can be just at silly as my drunk text messeging, which I am very proud to say I haven't done in awhile!

i really only send them to two main people. one who i just have to cuz well it's funny... and one to whom i "want" to. hahaha! I KNOW y'all know what i'm sayin'!! hahaha! drunk text messeging is fun. i like doing it. the weird crap that enters the mind when intoxicated is freakin hilarious. according to my roomates my last drunken nothing-ness came out as "Transformers...more than meets the eye... Transformers, Robots in disguise.." and apparently i was singing the Transformers theme song however those were the only words i knew and i just kept repeating them! hahaha!

its funny how when you're drunk a part of the real you comes out. i think everyone needs to get drunk at least once in their life and have someone video tape them. by doing so we all can see the real self that wants to come out instead of the masks that everyone puts on.

everyone puts on a mask there's no denying it. there's times in our lives when it's mandatory... like meeting those aunts and uncles who always say.."oh my god.. you're so big now" or "do you have a boyfriend yet? why not?!" we always put on that smile and laugh and say "oh auntie...." and really you just want to yell and scream "what do you mean i'm big now!? are you calling me fat!?" or "Yea i'm big the last time you saw me i was IN MY MOM'S BODY!" or "yea i don't have a boyfriend.. I don't need no man!" (adding the snap and head bob)... hahha! see there's always a mask.

people can be real, i'm not saying everyone is fake. I'm just saying that everyone has a little part that is a fib. a part that they kinda skew so that really it's them but it's not. you get it?

i'm one of those people who if someone comes up to me and says "omg i haven't seen you in ages.. how are you" I will totally be like "dude... it's been way too long! i'm good..what have you been up to?!" and then when the conversation is over turn to whom ever i'm with and ask "who the hell was that?! wasn't that that dude that like threw shit at me?"

it's my nature to put up a front too. we all put up a front until we feel comfortable. it's a joke but it's part of our defence mechanism. (did i spell that right).


okay the end. i have to end my mindless effort here cuz really i lost where i was going.. hahaa... night shifts are not good for my mind.

WAIT! i remember... no i don't.
until next post.