2007: A Look Back at the Mindless Efforts

Wow... another year past. Can you believe its 2008!?!?
What can I say 2007 has been rather good to me. I've accomplished and seen so much and I am thankful for everything presented to me. From starting the year off entering my last year of school to ending the year off with meeting musical legends, I can say I've had a pretty awesome year.

I finished my BScN, passed the board exam and became an RN. It feels good to have finished school and have a career but it also feels a little weird because now I actually have to call myself a grown up, an adult. Whoa. Everyone always asked that question when you were little "What do you want to be when you grow up?" My parents always tell me that I said "I want to be a policeman so I can arrest Lolo for drinking and driving" I can briefly remember saying that but when you're a kid imagination runs wild and you say anything that sounds cool. I even remember saying i wanted to be a baker! hahaha!! totally off from being a nurse eh?

Anyways being a nurse is great. It has it's up and downs but the rewards are just incredible. Being able to see people go from being really sick to all better and knowing you had a hand in helping a person achieve that it pure. I love it. Being able to help strangers even when you don't have to is the best reward in life.

I've made a lot of changes in 2007, however I've also made the same mistakes. Changes are more about seeing the real me. It was definitely a journey but I feel that in 2007 i made the most growth. I see things differently. I'm taking more responsibilities and accepting challenges a lot more. I don't give up as easily and I see myself "suckin it up" more often. I'm not usually the confrontation type however in my line of work it seems almost necessary or else you'll get walked over. It's terrible how the world has become so engrossed with the idea of "its all about who you know." People work hard to get to where they are but as soon as some friend of the boss walks in they get screwed over. Something similar is happening at work right now, not to me of course, but to a co-worker who deserves way better treatment. I decided to speak my mind and little did i know that it helped. I've learned to do more of that. Say what's on my mind and not keep it in. "Get Involved...the world is run by those who show up." that little quote sums it all. I showed up, I stepped up and became a change for someone else. I never really liked getting into other peoples drama but sometimes it's necessary and I'm glad I am beginning to realize that.

Another change was not being able to find relationships again. Derrick was rough on me. We didn't get far but for some odd reason it affected me A LOT. The news that I've heard about, so far about him, has been good. I'm happy that's he's doing what he originally wanted in life, I wish him all the best. After him I sort of lost trust in the opposite sex, then my relationship with my brother grew and he helped change my view on the male species. Bryan, my brother, my good friend Derouin help me see the good again in guys. With the help of my best friends and these two guys I began to trust again. Relationship status for me is still non-existent however I did try in the August... no luck ended up getting into a lot of mess with a friend about girl codes but it's over nothing I can really do and if this happened to me last year I probably would've broken down again however it's not like that. Again the confidence that I've worked on and have finally become comfortable with help me get through it and it was easy to accept this rejection. It's hard to see all my friends coupled up with me sort of being the third wheel all the time, but I've accepted it. I know my time will come and when it does I know it'll be awesome. God has a plan and I'm just waiting on the signal from Him.

Where else have I grown? Oh right... music. To me music is my everything. I don't know where I would be if music were not around. I've listen to everything and in 2007 i fell in love with so many new artists and found my love again for a group of legends. So most weirdest group first...

The Jonas Brothers.
First heard of them on that Disney show Hannah Montana. Yes I know what is a 25 year old doing watching that!? well it was Saturday and there's nothing else on except Disney shows and football or basketball I don't watch football or basketball so i settled one morning watching the shows on Disney and it just so happened that Hannah Montana was on. So The Jonas Brothers were doing a cameo and they sang with her and I just found it funny and the music was sort of catchy, so I looked them up, liked their jam and when i went down to Washington with a friend we made a pit stop at Best Buy and i saw their CD on sale I picked it up and said why not? popped it in and haven't been able to stop listening to them. They are a pop/rock group, kids to me 15, 18 and 20 i believe but I give them credit they know their music. I know kids don't listen to lyrics but any parent out there reading this... get your kids listening to them. Good messages these boys have and a clean image. so Kudos so the Jonas Brothers!

Next is an amazing soul/acoustic singer named
Ernie Halter.
Pure...that's all I have to say. Nice strong fearless voice that emits sounds as if he's living the words out. Amazing musician, him along with two other artists Josh Hodge and Trey Lockerbie did a song called "try" find it on youtube, Damn amazing... again PURE. I've been listening to a lot of acoustic musicians lately and they have all inspired me to take up the guitar. So far I've learned maybe 3 chords but man I am enjoying it.
Other artists to look for are Tony Lucca and Matt Morris both great musicians as well.

Finally The legends that help bring 2007 to a close for me was no other than...
Boys II Men
Apparently they spell it Boyz II Men now but still the same "Omg I'm wet" voices. Please look for my next blog to come about the concerts and musicians I've met and seen play soon, and the "omg I'm wet" story will be there too. hahahhaa!!

Other Highlights of 2007:
- 4 weddings, one of them being in Singapore. Amazing country Singapore it was just too bad I only got to spend 4 days there, definitely a "must go back" place.

- Auditioning for Kababayan Pilipino, a Filipino dance company, and making the cut. However also losing my spot in PhilCAS the Filipino dance company, I can now say asked me to leave. With PhilCAS it was really huge struggle with weight issues with the director for me i think. I was a good dancer I just didn't have the body type she sees dancers to be. KP sees dancers in every shape and size and I think as a dancer, who does not have a "true dancer body," I will get more of an opportunity to dance and not just be background. Along with this I did my first big show with them in Kamloops, 2 hour show with an intermission, it was my first real theater production and I can't believe how much I was a part of it after only rehearsing/being with the group for only 4 months. I was with the other group 5 years and the only big production I felt I was being a part of was the European Tour, and I hardly danced there anyways. I still have much respect for the director though, she is an amazing performer/dancer/teacher... if I had the right body type to stay with her I would've, but I don't therefore I'm staying with the group who accepts my fat. hahahaha!!

- Travelling to Toronto, Las Vegas, Powell River (actually living in Powell River was a unforgettable experience), Singapore, San Francisco, and finally Kamloops.

- Justin Timberlake Concert, Boyz II Men, and a few bands I saw in Powell River that I can't remember

Anyways so.... that was my 2007. Lots of growth is how I sum it up. I see parts of myself becoming an adult and also parts of myself that's struggling to keep the kid in me, but you know what I like the kid in me, it's sort of part of who I am and I think I'm gonna keep it, i won't struggle keeping it I'm just gonna do it. hahaha. Okay those reading thanks for sticking it through the essay. I know the grammar and spelling is all over the place but it's 2am, the brain stops thinking about that stuff after midnight so my apologies. Take care everyone!

Much Love for 2008!
Xs and Os!

until next post.