Lyrics for the day

I was in my little world exploring youtube when I came across a song that hit me really hard today. It was sort of like a "Whoa..." moment. There was a time about 2 years ago where I opened up to someone. I told him everything, and I mean EVERY LITTLE THING. It was sort of the first time I ever did that with a guy who I didn't see as just a friend. For the time I knew him I didn't know what would come of our relationship, however I've dealt with the pain a while ago now, and I understand he wasn't sent to me "for" me but to help me realize it was okay to open up and show the true colours of who I am. There's a little soft spot I still have for him, even though I thought he was a JERK, at times I still think that but besides the point. This song I heard, the lyrics sort of brought me back. What if I could go into that person's mind and rearrange how he knows me... What if I could go into his mind and rearrange the pieces of his memory and make the memories good. A bunch of what ifs but that's what came to me when i heard these lyrics.

"The harder I try to make my escape
You still haunt me.
The farther I get, the more intense
Separation leads to desperation
Cuz when you're not close to me
A freight train runs over me
You're killing me slowly.

If only you were lonely
And broken
I'd creep into your mind
without you knowin'
Rearrange the pieces
When you weren't watchin'
And leave you with the memory
That you loved me
If only you were lonely"

The lyrics just stood out for me and I wanted to share it. It's not me living in the past don't worry. I've closed the book on this person but I know there are people out there that had something similar happen to them and I just wanted them to know that they aren't alone.

until next post.