A Round of Hearts

Unsteady Emotions
Unstable Desires
All lead to this whimsical feeling
But What is this feeling exactly?
I've seen it before, didn't like it.
I was reckless and scatterbrained and just not me.
I'm upset that I allow for this to happen
But i know for some odd reason I like it.
I like the erratic actions my mind thinks of.

This feeling is so fascinating to me that I drown
myself in it when I know I should just let it go.
I catch myself falling for the allure of it's future
but alas everything in my body tenses up.
How contradicting eh?

It's like I want it to happen but I don't?

How does that work?
This strong interest of mine is not at all boring or uninteresting
It's sexy.
It's so individualized and so independent
that I long for more.

An attraction to the unknown has always been my kryptonite.
This unknown being is amusing, different from other unknowns I've been attracted to before.
I'm dumbfounded and taken aback.
Speechless
A loss for words
For now I'll let my mind wander
and allow the whimsical feeling to taunt me
There's nothing else worth it right now.

until next post.